It's actually pretty amazing to work on my own art and not feel guilty about it. In school, I was like, I'm paying for this studio time! I better get some work done! And my teachers were always hanging around, and the other students. After school I felt like ... it was maybe self-indulgent to do my own art. My first job out of school was in a completely different field, and that job took many hours of my day outside of time in the office, so it was hard to really work on art.
Then I went to grad school for art therapy, spending a short amount of time on my work but mostly focusing on other people and their needs. And then I really didn't make my own art, when maybe I should have... I remember spending a few days on my first crochet piece and thought, wow, this is amazing, I could be doing this all the time (but never made another piece).
Now that I don't have the time to work as an art therapist, and I spend most of my day focused on the kids and their needs, it still does feel self-indulgent to work on my own work. But at the same time, being a productive artist makes me feel more like a whole person, and feeling like a whole person is important when you spend so much of your energy on others.
So here is what I have been working on this week. I made the frame over the last several weeks but the crochet was yesterday and today. Today I worked for almost an hour and a half, with my music blasting - IN MY OWN HOME. It felt amazing.